Break My Fall(2016)

Jessica Scott

Violence.  I'm addicted to it.  It's how I feel alive.  It's the only thing that's real any more.

And now I have to sit around and discuss it like it's physics or calculus. I can't do it. I can't pretend that it's some sterile academic topic.  Violence isn't sterile. It isn't calm. It's pulsing. It's alive.  
It's my drug.
 Until I met Abby, I never wanted anything beyond the next fight. Never considered that I might finally find a way back to the land of the living. Now? Now I find myself dreaming of a woman with golden eyes.  But I can never be with her. Because I am not whole. And I never will be again.
 But I cannot stay away.
 And loving her might finally be what breaks me.